so good to be with you agn....though indeed i was very sad when he asked me back due to his harness and all the terms and conditions,i'm very happy now being with him.though i'm pretty stress everytime but i hope he wld not let me be anymore someday......so far ..every book out....i'm with him even though he go meet his friends :D....this is one thing i 'm super happy about..i cant compare to the past when we were super sweet..but if i compare to those last few months before the borke up..i should be super duper happy alrd :D....though the feeling wasnt tt same...but it was still sweet......but i know it wasnt as sweet as the past..but its alright as long we love each other ^^.....he has been treating me real good now....as for the sensitve part ..to be honest...i haven really changed abt tt ..but everything i keep inside so we wont quarrel tt might lead to a breakup forever u know.....i just wnana trust him....but i wish he really wont lie to me..because trust is really impt to me....sometimes he treats me real good that its hard to believe...gals are gals we will think ther's sth wrong when suddenyl a guy treats u well right.....heh....seriously i relaly hope our love is real this time....i really love him and only him ...what is past is alrd the past...but the scars u've left behind cant be taken away......tts why i stil have phobia u wld leave me....or be unfaithful or lie to me...these are the main reasons i'm so scard.....but i dare not tell u.....
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
9:50 PM
if only our love was deep enough ...when he wanted to patch back i thought he wld wan to see me more since he loved me...but probably the love wasnt deep enough....i know 5 precious day he need to split (his ah ma ,mother n friends ).....my patch up wasnt a happy one though we are tgt or mb we haven are tgt yet.....but i still wanna be with u.....i listen to the songs i really cant hold back the tears.....i dont wanna tell my friends abt it because they wld have nth else to say alrd.....if u really want me back i really wished u wld have asked me out not only the hours b4 u book in....u know how much i miss you and all.....u can vent ur frustrations on me, and all...but i will cry behind ur back so u wont see i'm sad.....i will still try my best to show u my love and affection n care......i just hope u cld treat me number 1 agn...but i now u wont as your deep for me isnt tt deep after all ....i've already agreed to ur terms so i dont wanna quarrel with u....but i wish u wld know what to do as a bf...dont have to be a wonderful one ....but i;m a gal and u're asking me back...but when i get from u is making me sad... i wish we cld meet up more so tt i can do more for u and make u feel i loved u more than another else...love is about loving someone and also abt how tt someone make u feel....
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
9:23 PM
all i ask for is just a simple or sweet recoillation ...i'm happy he asked me back but , u asked a gal back only if u loved her alot.....but why am i feeling i;m the one asking him for patch instead...? he was sweet when he asked if i was willing to patch back with the photo story he told me.....but now they are more and more conditions....i have to be very careful if we patch if not he wld leave me forever and there wld not be anymore chances.....its like i have conditions to follow ...he doenst have...i mean being tgt just be when u're in love.....thinking abt breakup when we haven even patch....he's afraid than at the first place why u asked me and make me cry so much due to i was happy.....u should be seeing me and makeing me believe in u agn ..not me following all the rules of urs.....but because i loved him so much and this is like the first and prob last time in this 1 half years..i will jsut obey him....happy anot i will just keep it inside...i dont wan another breakup......prob because i want him back more than he wants me back even though he's asking me back now....!!..... i just love you and i hope as time passes....i can be myself agn and not following all the tiao jians...i;m BOBO ..cha cha's kind alrd.....i will just obey and follow the rules of this love game....how i wish it cld be true love with no rules other than staying faithful all tt...
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
5:52 PM
1 oct....the day has came.....miraclefirst he asked me to move on and stuff...and by looking at those photos...i'm sure they were serious...though i cant slp and stop thinking abt him i've decided to move on alrd.....but just a week later...he told me abt finding a photo and it brings back memories of us...and asking me back...i was touched and cried because 1 and a half year its really not say very long but many things happened and i was really lost....but i didnt say yes immediately though i really wanted too...because he just broke up and surely will miss her right...and secondly he told me he was afriad i attitude,oversensitive and control him......but does he even know he has things to cahnge too.......its not i want to be like senstive but if he ask his friends ard even though they feel he sort of like her...but i dk if its true.....but today i heard from her the photo thing he talked abt was true which i;m happy...but when i know he went to print more i guess he will have his and her photo in his locker which is normal but i wonder if there were ours...?...and before he booked out he was treatin g me so nice tt i cld not believe it...he asked me wanna go meet him ...watch movie with his friends and dinner and stuff..find me and work ...but none of it happened :(.....i dont mind if u dont do it but when u say it it makes me happy but when it doenst happend after u say it i'm really very sad....and when the day he booked out .....i;ve know the feeling isnt tt deep ....i dont feel that he's wanted me back ....he doesnt pay much attention to me....but today things were better..we talked and yeah .....but its really hot and coldANSWER:i said i wld answer his patching back question when i see him...but i didnt because he didnt ask me agn....and i have doubts...but now i really wanna say YES YES YES....but he isnt asking me....i mean this kinda thing must ask personally face to face not texting right......u must be sincere and really show me u love me ,wanting me backmb he just asked me back because he know there;s someone treating me v well too...? left 3 days before he go camp and so much i wanna spent these 3 days with him too and say yes to him once more.....i've really waiting this long..i'm touched ...i'm happy......if he asked me in real life i wld cry ....it wld be tears of joy ^^...i love you...
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
12:45 AM
