during these 3 days of chalet....actually to admit....i did not really enjoy myself....because the feeling was horrible and it was really very painful....i rmb even when we broke up ...u wld be close to me ...but mb because sometimes ...i'm the only gal there....i believed u had feelings for me during tt few months but now i dont even think so .. i guess u dont anymore .....
there;s sth u might deny....
actually all these while....i 've realised who u actually really love/like.....i dont think i have the need to spell out her name....u used to say i've oversensitive ..yes i am ....but if u talk to her all tt its alright...but during the chalet u kept disturbing her....flirting with her....i was totally transparent....my pressence was not impt.....i've thought i cld take it but i cld no longer take it at one pt.....mb u were enjoying urself too much tt u didnt even noticed..i came to the chalet to spend more time...though i know i might cry and all ...i didnt wanna spoil the mood....but i over estimate my tolerance....
during the first night only i had a lil really close time with u....though i was helping u scratch ur back....put the shirt on for you ...feed you .....i felt happy....but its just tt moment....the rest of the time u treated me coldly....i love you too much till the extent i know everything about you and feel you feel....
i know you are happy being close with her.....but u feel tt there isnt any chance between you and her as ur friends like her too...and moreover u 're going NS.....u feel that u wana be with her but u cant.....tts what i feel ....if its wrong than its my bad....
i;ve been wanting to ask u to let me send u off to ns...but now i doubt i have the courage too ..because i think i will get rejected agn....
probably u dont have feelings for me....u dont have to care abt how i felt...and how sad i was during these 3 days....seeing u happy i should learn to be happy.....anyways...if i cant send you off in ns..its alright..i just wish u to be safe and sound inside.....endure every hardship ....eat and slp well inside....hopefully u wld be a better person instead of worst....u get influence easily....so much i wanna tell u ..if u have anything u can find me...call me...and all...but i doubt u wld like in the past because i'm already out of ur life......but still i will be waiting and be there when u need me...though i might try to move on but still waiting....i dk ....i really dont...because i'm tired....so much i did and i get nth in return ..but love is like this....its just one sided...i cant force anything out from you .....take care...
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
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