i need to breathe.....i feel like texting him and saying all those stuff again ..but thinking twice....he would get more stress with his gf problem and mine..i guess she's sad that he didnt acc her home or sth..i know how she feels ....but if he does i wld be sad too....hai....i'm trying my best not to give him any stress or prob so mb for now i will just bear with all the sufferings.... :'(
i cant stop going to her blog ...but i can see though she's a player she likes him alot too....but i know i really love him much more than her...=X.... i rmb the first time he asked me to acc him take pay but i had test so i cant skip sch..but this time i foudn out he went with her...=X ...i bet he has met her mother too and they cab through n fro tgt....its very sad to know tt for me.....i dont wanna think what they do as in hug kiss.....i;ve thought through..i told myself its nth...they are stead of course nvm ar.....i told myself nth to be sad.....dont cry and be strong...but when i got home from west i cld not control any longer....if u were to ask me acc u for sth i wld be overjoyed .....even awhile ...
i was really putting a brave front just now at west......i use to be his gf stting there watching him play but now its someone else.....i just had to play and act per normal.....i got to peep at him though i know i cant..but i cant help it by looking at him.....he looks so happy when playing bball..he looks so serious when he plays .....its just himself when he's playing bball....he's not acting like someone he wasnt use to be....his gf was there i dk if she knows me but i know its her.....so much i wanna run away but i stayed because this is reality and i rather suffer so i cld see him a lil longer...
i;ve cried......and i dont feel tt bad because he didnt see the teears i've cried.....
i really love u but u're with someone else saying u love her too but telling me its for fun...?
confused everyday :(....
miss the times when we used to play bball tgt...tts the reason why i've been playing so much bball now......its partly b'cos of u....and myself....
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
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